Things Are Looking Up

As always, when things get bad, they always get better.

Friday, I had my follow up appointment with my OB/GYN. She let me know that I am healthy and should have no problems having children. She believes that I miscarried because of a problem in DNA replication. The chances of that happening again are only 4 percent. Since I am healthy, she said we do not have to wait to start trying to get pregnant.

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This is the best news we could have gotten and we couldn’t be happier. We will let everyone know when we have Baby Lane on the way.



At a Loss

Friday, I miscarried our first pregnancy. We were only 5 weeks along and had only known we were pregnant for a week. I hate to share sad news, but I want everyone to know that Jesse and I have appreciated all of the love and support we have gotten the past few days. It has been a sad time for us, but we are hopeful that things will work out better in the future.


Insert Foot in Mouth

Let me share an embarrassing moment with you…

Yesterday, Jesse and I went out to eat in his truck. He was really tired from a rough day at work, so I drove us home. This is a rare occurrence for us because I hardly ever drive when we are together.

About a block away from our house, Jesse says, “Do you always drive like this?” I reply with, “What? You mean SAFELY?” He says I did a sassy head bob. (I’m not so sure about that.)

About a minute later, as I was pulling into the driveway, I swiped my Trailblazer.

Jesse’s reaction:


There was hardly any damage, but I was pretty upset. It wasn’t until we had time to get over it that we remembered I said that. That’s what I get for being “sassy.”


Our First Anniversary

Yesterday marks our first anniversary as a married couple. We made it through the dreaded “hardest year of our marriage.” If the urban legends are true and this was the hardest year of our marriage, then I’d say I’m in for a really easy marriage.


This year went much more smoothly than I expected. Not that I expected to be divorced or anything like that, but relationships seem to go bad more often than not nowadays.

The most important thing I have learned over this past year is something that I think will help me in our marriage in the long run. When things are down, we have to remember our ultimate goal: to build a life and a family , where we are both happy being ourselves together. 


A lot of times, the details of a situation can make the big picture blurry. Learning to keep focused on that goal has helped me to remain calm when things aren’t going the way I want or expect.

Let me put a disclaimer here, because there were several times that I did lose my cool. But, when I found my head again, remembering to keep the right perspective kept me from even considering giving up.


I know that our marriage will not always be as blissful as it was this past year, but I know that even through the worst years of our life, we can make it because we believe in the same goal.


Now to get past the sappy part, we went on a weekend trip to Cloudcroft, New Mexico for our anniversary. Cloudcroft is a small mountain town, full of character. We spent the weekend walking from shop to shop, eating (way too much) delicious food, and cuddled in the historic Cloudcroft Hotel. It was the perfect place to spend the weekend alone.


We left Cloudcroft just in time to beat the snow coming in, but there was snow waiting for us when we got home.


I’m happy not only to be celebrating a year with Jesse, but the best year of my life so far. I know that we will have bad years too, but I am hoping that we have even better years ahead of us.


Happy (early) anniversary!

Our first wedding anniversary is approaching. I can’t believe it’s already been a year.

To kick off the celebration a little early, Jesse gave me my present this weekend.


A 1950s wedding band and a 1960s art deco ring. He knows how to make me happy!

I don’t yet have words for the past year, but hopefully I will be able to make a post about all of that soon. In the mean time, we’re working on a home improvement project before our Thanksgiving guests arrive.



It has been too long since I made a post and I apologize for that. I started my new work schedule and it makes me feel like the day is shorter. That’s just an excuse, though. I’ll be better this week.

I want to share this quote with you: “No one appreciates what I do, until I don’t do it anymore.” I really liked this quote when I first saw it. I think a lot of women relate to it because we feel like we do so much in a day and never get a thank you. Especially moms.

We compare ourselves to other people, oftentimes our husbands, and think “He doesn’t care that I spent hours cleaning the house” or “I wish he would help me more.” I was really feeling this when we came home from our mini-vacation over the weekend and knew my to-do list was a mile high.

Then I looked up and realized Jesse was already helping me straighten the house up. Yes, without me asking him.


I realized that those feelings I have are unjustified. He does a lot of chores too. Probably much more than most husbands. All the time I spent thinking he didn’t appreciate me, I wasn’t appreciating him. And on top of that, why should I get a pat on the back for things I should be doing anyway. I’m not over-achieving by doing chores that have to be done.

I feel pretty guilty about it. I know that if I didn’t feel that way, we would get more chores done and I wouldn’t resent him for the chores I got done on my own. I’m going to try to focus on appreciating him more instead of wondering when he will appreciate me.


Two Heads Are Better Than One

Being newlywed, I have so much to learn about marriage. I feel like I’m constantly learning and adjusting. My epiphany this week was that Jesse and I really keep each other in perspective. We are two people living one life together, bringing different experiences and personalities to each situation.

Perfect example: this week when I was getting upset about things that were going on, Jesse was clear-headed enough to talk me through it and make me realize that things weren’t as bad as they seemed and that they were inevitably going to work out.

I know that two mindsets could easily be a problem area for some relationships, but I think this is one of the best things about our married life.

For the mister and I, it seems like our lives are so much better now that we have each other to work through each situation, for better or worse. It’s really nice to know that I have someone who shares my goals with me and that we are helping each other get there.



New Opportunities

Two weeks ago on Saturday my husband lost his job.

He had been working for an irrigation/contract company for over four years with no benefits and little pay. The owner of the company (with only a handful of employees) treated them all unfairly and overworked them. I’m not under-exaggerating. Some employees could show up to work drunk, but he would get put down for going to church and not cussing everyone out.

After an unexpected falling out, he was without a job for not putting up with all of it anymore.

We submitted countless applications and talked to everyone we could about getting him a new job. And thank goodness for West Texas’s fighting economy. There are so many job opportunities here.

Today, he had an interview with a telecommunications company and got the job. This will definitely be new for us, but we can only go up from where we were.

I’m so thankful for a husband who wants to work and has strong discipline. These two weeks would have been much more difficult if I wouldn’t have been so confident in him and our relationship.